IF time could turn back to the past.. i would undo what i have done now.. and we probably don't even have to end up like that. JIA, i guess to you now.. im a nobody anymore.. Actually i did thought about myself whether i am even qualify to have you back despite all the things i done. I don't think you may wanna have me in your life anymore. Its really hard for me to not contact you but i shall try but(the posibilities for you to forget me is really high >< ).. you deserve someone better. Life without you by my side is going to be hard...i will only love you in my heart. For now i got to do is wait and be patient .

What happen to me?? Today fall sick dam it.. Must be yesterday's swim at 3k caught a cold.. Sick nvm some more my thigh n waist kinda hurt .. Youch!! Really old jor .. Anyway.. 2 months without her already.. Yet my feelings to her still haven faded.... Lim Tsu Jin u gotta be patient !! People tell me to move on.. I can choose to listen to them.. I am moving on but to be a better man. Not to give up on her. Real man stay faithful. They don't have time to look for another woman. Because they are too busy looking for new ways to love their own. 

想逃离现在的生活？

Accidentally saw u posted on twitter. Am wondering whether it is because of your college life? must be stress to have alot of assignment to do.. i suppose? hope you are doing fine.. i wish i could lend u a hand but.. in our current situation i don't think you need me anymore. feel so helpless..try not to stress yourself ya..these assignment thingy will eventually over de. i believe u can handle de. All the best..

5201314?? took me some time what does it meant since i see most of the people posting on facebook. but how does it relate to i love you forever? still remain clueless lols =.= anyway whatever is it i have no chance to say those words to her anymore.. still.. I LOVE YOU ETERNALLY ! ahh... i feel good.

Its OVer?

Its really over this time. for 2 months i hold on .. and its also me myself screwed it up. Ya i might want info to know more about you what have u been doing.. maybe i request from your friend is wrong.. but did i use those information to try to approach you? did i use those information for any bad intention? ya am an adult.. but adult can too make wrong decisions and regret. but you? i dono mayb you feel you mature in handling our relationship. u say the bad memories always haunt u down.. what about good memories? not worth to even think about it anymore? u only want to think the bad memories.. thats what stopping us from starting another relationship.. i really not that worth another look anymore? yea perhaps to u its all past.. never present not anymore.  i don't even know why u tell me like dat my tears keep flowing. well i should feel proud that all the while i did tried hard to make us happen but it did not .. still the main point i did TRIED.. thats something to be proud of. (Die Liao la.. I tell her like that but feeling to her so strong..) To be honest, i miss the time we together >< how we face problems together .. share everything with each other .. no matter bad or good ones. arghh!! lee kar wee ah.. u really affected my life and u became part of my life which i feel bless to have u.

It's a special day..

Well.. Guess what? .. It's 11/5/2014.. It's a special day for my only beloved mother.. Happy mothers day mom xD gonna celebrate it tonite!! Haha!! Well apart from Mother's Day, it's actuali another special day too for me.. It's our anniversary !!! Although as how much as I want to express it to her I could not express this to her anymore it's because we are over.. So I'm expressing out HERE with no restrictions.. Well today is the exact day dat we have been together for 2 years .. ( if we were stil together) anyway of coz I know today would come.. So last few days I been looking for gifts for my mom and of coz her.. Mom's gift was kinda easy to pick up.. But hers.. Haha I spend time to look for it.. N guess what I found for her??

Ta da!!! Hunger game set books lol.. On 10/5/2014, morning I went over to maxis to change my ivalue 2 plan becoz my contract had already expired. So I change to a cheaper plan which is surf more 75.. I used more on data so I decide to choose dat package. After that came back home watch nba with my buddies until 1pm+ and we head over to bukit tinggi try out the Assam laksa store. Food was kinda not bad.. So.. After dat I told them dat I wanna head over to aeon to look for gifts .. So they start to question me Lols .. Some of dem did get my intention  and so we head to popular and I found this hunger game books but it did not come in set >< and at that time oni got book 1 n 2.. Book 3 no stock!!! Was kinda frustrated at the beginning .. So after that.. In the nite, me and kp headed over to bukit raja jusco popular oso same result!!! Book 3 no stock!! It was kinda late already but I told kp to go 1 more place which is setia mall...took me 10min to reach setia mall .. Also same result!! Book 3 no stock!! My frustration increase!! Was kinda emo .. So I ask the counter guy to check for me which outlet can I go and purchase the book 3 ( name title mockingjay ) was telling to kp dat if don have I think we might have time to shoot to sunway to check lo he say I crazy =.= dinner also haven eat yet.so after the counter guy checked, everywhere sold out except the curve At damansara.. Haha got hope Liao !! And so this morning wake up went jogging had my breakfast with my frens den I myself shoot straight to the curve!! Took me some time to search for the popular store.. But at the end I found the book!!!! Though I been running here n there, I'm kinda happy to look for the books and it's definitely worth it!!! 42.90 per/book !! i feel the satisfaction ^^ 

Horoscope~~

well i came across this article about horoscope and its quite true tho i normally never believe it :P 

im the aquariuse and she's the virgo 

Aquarius and Virgo

When Virgo and Aquarius join together in a love match, they bring out either the best or worst in one another. Virgo has a more rigid, theory-oriented approach to life. The poetic Aquarian approach, on the other hand, knows nothing of the scientific world. But these two lovers may actually thrive on their differences; they grow together as they learn about one another.

Aquarius tends to be passionate and temperamental while Virgo operates more methodically, and with little fuss. Virgo is very organized and levelheaded. Aquarius is modern and finds routine unthinkable. Virgo will find Aquarius exciting but may become annoyed trying to probe this artist’s mind. Aquarius will be upset by Virgo’s criticism, but will find the solid base Virgo provides very appealing.

Virgo is ruled by Mercury and Aquarius is ruled by Saturn and Uranus. Both Mercury and Uranus are androgynous energies while Saturn is a cool, traditional energy. Uranus is about all things odd and atypical. Mercury is communicative and focuses on organization and efficiency, all of which are important to Virgo. Saturn is about hard work and discipline to achieve goals while Uranus centers on forward thinking. Virgo will try to introduce organization, rationality and comfort into Aquarius’s life. Aquarius can inspire Virgo to be more aloof, to dig their heels in and stand up for what they believe.

Virgo is an Earth Sign and Aquarius is an Air Sign. Aquarius moves through life seeking pure spiritual enlightenment, while Virgo is more intellectual. Virgos seek the ‘how’ and ‘why’ of a situation, while Aquarians simply focus on what tickles their fancy, practical or not, and usually ask ‘what next?’ At times each partner may find it difficult to understand the other’s perspective. Conflicts can arise in this relationship if becomes obsessed with realizing the perfect relationship or Aquarius seems too aloof. Both partners must appreciate and respect one another’s view of the world, and see that they have a lot to learn from their partner.

Virgo is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Aquarius can be unreasonable, opinionated and stubborn. Both partners are very passionate and intent when working toward their goals. Virgo adapts well to any social situation. Virgo is pleased to help Aquarius as long as their efforts are appreciated. Conflicts are rare, and are usually resolved by more Virgo’s accommodating nature than by any concessions on Aquarius’s part. If the two understand they’re working together for a common goal, it’s much easier for them to reach it. Virgo is more realistic than Aquarius will be more willing to budge to avoid a heated fight.

What’s the best aspect of the Virgo-Aquarius relationship? It’s that when they come together, their combined ambition drives them to do miraculous deeds. This relationship tends to be informative, enlightening and a pleasure to both participants.

However, if love is there between the two, you should go ahead to improve the relation. To make it run smoothly, both have to make little effort and come forward for establishing harmony. For that Virgo woman is suggested to control the pitch and speech when in anger. However, it is difficult to control but when tried can bring good results. She should try to plan trips together or spend evenings together regularly. This makes him understand that she is not as shy as he thought and here the Virgo woman will understand that he is also not as quiet as she had thought him to be. Social connections will stimulate your relationship. Make atmosphere light to relax your partner. Here the Aquarian man is suggested to be a bit practical and provide financial security. It is good for the future of both. Support and motivate your partner in her career and household chores. It will work like magic. 

hopefully we could start all over :D 

Dreaming~~

Guess what.. I dreamt about me and her this morning!! While I was at home , late nite I heard someone is knocking my house door .. My family were already sleeping.. So while I was still awake I came down n check hu was it.. It was HER!! With tears.. She asked me can I come in?? Of coz I would open the door for her.. But what happen?? Ur in tears.. Are u alrite?? Come in to my room .. Let's talk about it.. She was telling me that she is under lots of stress .. And she Dono why she ended up here.. I told her it was kinda shock to see you here.. Especially late nite.. She's having lots of stress in the college with the exams  college activities and ppl around her.. I tried to comfort her .. And she did manage to stop cyring n then we talk abit bout us.. She wanna go for a trip with me someday .. I was shock to hear dat but I say sure y not? Haha.. Den she asked me can I overnite hear for today?? Hmm.. Alrite sure . At that nite she was in my arms haha.. So happy ..  Ai yoo!! 7.30am alarm woke me up!! Kacau betul haha !! It was a nice dream xD 

Why people around me now reali can't be trusted anymore?? Why people change so easily?? Why?? Why must I face this kind of treatment?? Last time I have her with me of coz I put my trust on her.. But now.. Who else can I trust?? Sometimes I just wanna stand alone.. Believe in me, me n only me.. 

Emo emo haha..

Lee Kar Wee.. I can't tell u how much I love u but at least I could express out in my blog.. I miss you so much .. The love I have inside my heart for you is unreplaceble.. I could not tell u this becoz  your heart no longer have me.. To me it's kinda sad.. But I gotta accept the fact...i once own you.. N I hope to own u again some other time.. If that reali happen, I will never ever let u go from me that easily!! I will bring out all my effort for u.. No doubt about that..